i think i want to start keeping a real diary. writing down feelings, thoughts, observations, possibly even drawings, photos. i think today i am going to apply at movies plus, i wish community was closer and then i would have more motivation to apply.

i need to sort shit out in my life. there are things that i know can and will make me happy, but it's almost as if i'm afraid to commit to them fully. do they even want to be commited to? fuck kendra, for once in your life make an active decision. make some damn goals and stick to them, figure out what you want and then DO IT. watch me sit here stuck in the same damn place doing the same damn things and wishing my life were different.